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Moon Phase

January 2019
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Bruce [userpic]

I did, eventually, get to sleep after my last post - but not before printing out and stapling the latest update sheets. I was concerned that even though I had a couple of days, I'd probably forget to do it before the Sunday show.

Because I would. A lot of the weirdness in my life has to do with the simple fact that if I don't do something when I'm thinking about it, I may not even think about it again for months.

In any case, I got a good 6 hours of sleep in before getting up, and roughly crawling my way towards visiting my parents.

The "crawling" part meant that I didn't get there until 6:00pm. But still, I got a couple of jobs done, and we had a nice dinner. There was a certain amount of after-dinner drama...

Some basic background: My dad is largely deaf, with about 75% hearing loss. When in a battle in WWII, he made the mistake of looking out of a foxhole at the wrong time - specifically, the time when a shell hit nearby. He was lucky enough to escape the shrapnel, but the concussion knocked him out and broke both eardrums.

So even with hearing aids, he no hear so good.

He also doesn't deal well with contradiction. He doesn't get violent, but he does get angry - and I find anger and conflict near physically painful.

So, for some odd reason, whenever I'm about to say something that I think might set him off, I get very quiet, and my lips don't move much. It's kind of automatic. Hell, I do it with everyone - and fortunately, I do it far less than I used to.

I forget the subject, but this happened last night - and I got one of the tearful pleas to please, please speak up. These happen periodically, and I can't blame him. I also can't begin to explain why I'm that way, because, well, he wouldn't particularly believe me. He's somehow rather blind to a few aspects of his personality.

Not a comfortable time. Also odd, since as far as I could tell, for most of the conversation, I was by far the loudest of the three of us...

In any case, that eventually defused, and I got back home around 11:00pm or so. I've managed to get a little bit more done on the website - mostly picture selection. Take a look: You might be there. Let me know what you think, positive or negative.

I've also finally done some laundry (I had one pair of underwear left).

I haven't done too much for the last couple of hours, so hopefully I'll either get back to work, or climb into bed. Time will tell.

Current Location: The Duplex
Mood: calmcalm

Your site looks cool. Mes like. me need to find money to come and see my purple lights in action and get a few songs out. Do you have "Special" from Ave Q?

What is up with this weather...Its supposed to be spring and I'm freezing my ******* off!

Actually, I'm afraid your purple lights aren't out right now (I assume they're in the office with the other rope lights), though they were most appreciated during the Black&Blue Ball.

When we do another mild makeover, I'll see if I can bring those out...

As far as "Special" goes, if you go to the aforementioned site, to "Song List", and type in "ave q" for artist, and "special" for song, you'll find that it's JTG-330-09, and a trio.

I can't vouch too much for the weather, since I just sat up in bed. On the other hand, with the three computers and the window cracked, it's only 77° in here, so it's gotta be fairly cool out there...

I suggest marking this posting as a memory so that if you ever engage in counseling/therapy you can present it as one of a few "get up to speed quick" helpers.

In other news, getting here once again crashed the wireless router, which growing body of evidence is that happens mostly in response to your pages on lj. Weird, and worthy of getting me shopping for a next generation router.

Not a bad idea, though none of this is exactly a breakthrough for me. Heck, I only went one layer deep - anger and conflict are painful to me for closely related reasons.

It's truly weird that it crashed your router again. On the off chance - if it has filtering to that level - can you try blocking http://tycho.usno.navy.mil/cgi-bin/phase.gif? I realize that you, of all people, probably don't want to block that particular site as a whole. But the image can load painfully slowly (if at all), might change form partway through the load, and is wrong, anyway.

It's about the oddest thing I can think of about my page.