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Moon Phase



June 2019
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Bruce [userpic]
Dress-up

I didn't get really anything like awake yesterday until 3:00pm or so, and dragged myself through getting up.

Then She Who Shall Not Be Named pulled in a favor - I'd said I'd give her some power strips the last time I saw her, and she's moving into a different part of the building.

So I packed up the car, threw in a couple of power strips, and headed over.

In my present condition, it's very hard to walk away from a cute thing that's hanging on your arm and your every word (Yes, astroaztec, I said "cute thing." With some reason. There is much history there). So I didn't completely break away until 5:10pm or so, and then headed over to Moon Zooom.

An incredibly impressive place. I was at a complete loss until a quite attractive woman and her mother decided that dressing me like a Ken doll was far more amusing than worrying about their costumes. So I pretty much stayed in the dressing booth, and tried on things that they handed me.

At one point, I staggered into one of the walls of the booth, which knocked the bar holding the curtain off, leaving me holding a dress up between an almost naked me and the world. It was a perfect sitcom moment.

It was a lot of fun, and in typical Bruce fashion, not only did I not get a phone number, but I didn't even get a name...

So I now have three dresses, one for tonight, one for Wednesday, and one for the Thursday show. Each of them completely different. I'm afraid that's all I have, but I completely neglected to shop for a purse, they didn't have heels in my size, and besides, I'm pretty certain that heels and I, well... let's just say survival wouldn't be certain.

By this time it was 6:30pm, and I hadn't eaten yet. So I forwent Sarah and Paul's party, grabbed some Arby's, and rushed up to the bar.

I've said this sort of thing before, but essentially: Last night would have been a great Monday. Well, a little slow on the rotation side (I ran 14 of them before closing down at 2:03am), but quite a decent Monday bar take.

For a Sunday, it kinda sucked. On the other hand, it was the first time I've seen qzar_mystik in ages, I was blessed with several hours of moahb and celticnoor, and even got an appearance by trivialt.

And of all things, Steve and Larry came in and spent an hour or so! I haven't seen Steve since S.J. Pride...

I had about 17 different singers by the end of the night - just not all together.

I spent most of the evening doing songs that I haven't been able to manage before, and on the whole, not doing too badly. It's nice having my voice back, such as it is.

So I enjoyed myself, and I think most others did too. There was some Anthony/writenwrong drama of some form (I don't know what, but I can imagine), but I think that was only visible to the two of them - and possibly only visible to Paul. Anthony brought in a guy named James with a very nice voice - that was pleasant.

Since J was there at the start, the fast rotation meant we got to hear more songs from him - and that's always a plus.

Shutdown took forever, because I had the longest talk with Eddie I've had in quite a while, and also ordered a new amp for the bar. Paula suddenly decided she had to have it installed before the Wednesday Halloween show, because she's afraid lynxcat actually damaged it on Friday.

Apparently, Lynx pulled another one of his bridge-burning stunts. Big surprise, that.

So, anyway, it looks like I have things arranged properly so that the new amp should arrive at my apartment Wednesday - and at minimal cost. The sad thing there being that I'll miss the beginning of the Hamptons party, since I'll be at the bar plugging the thing in, then wading back south through rush hour. My life is so hard.

Then Denny's, and home, and quite a few hours of not particularly sleeping well, for whatever reason.

Right at the moment, I'm doing laundry. I've put it off too long, and offhand, if I'm going to be wearing a dress, I'd prefer to be wearing the underwear with the good elastic. I just finished OxyCleaning one of the dresses - it had a fairly noticeable tomato stain (we thought it was something else when I bought it, but it's stained from the outside in...).

And that's about it. Come out tonight and visit me at the bar - I need the money, and it's the only night I'll be wearing that particular lavender number.

Current Location: The Duplex
Mood: lethargiclethargic
Comments

I never said it wasn't difficult, dear. But let's put it this way: Your tunnel has a light at the end of it. Mine does not. My expectation is that all the joy and happiness I will ever get will be part and parcel of this extremely short journey from cradle to grave.

As far as knowledge is concerned, none of us truly have knowledge. As any being that exists must, we are bound by the limitations of our senses. True experience of the world around us is impossible, and we must instead surmise and extrapolate.

Do I know that God doesn't exist? Of course I don't! I don't know that the sun will come up tomorrow. I'm not particularly worried about the sun, though, because experience tells me that it will, and the slow refining process of Science has produced a model that says the sun is going to be with us for some time.

Not that I can be absolutely sure that I'm not just part of some simulation somewhere, and that the sun won't be switched off in moments. I don't expect or worry that such will happen, though the fact that it might leads me to a belief that I should attempt to act calmly and honorably no matter what occurs.

As you might be able to tell, of the three major world religions, I'm closer to the Hindu/Buddhist side of things than anything else. The Hindu concept of Maya makes a lot of sense to me.

In any case, my personal disbelief in a god as a primary cause for the universe boils down to a question of likelihoods. All present evidence points to intelligence, of any form, being a very complex thing. And there is ample evidence of complexity arising from a few basic rules and the action of random chance.

So when I look at two views of the birth of the universe, one in which a few simple rules somehow sprang into being, and all the beauty that we see resulted from those, and the other in which an incredibly complex and powerful entity somehow sprang into being, and created everything else, I have to say that the second view just doesn't really seem all that credible.

As far as Christianity itself is concerned, well, lessee...

We have the incredibly bloodthirsty God of the old testament. Smite smite smite, kill the women and children first, you don't believe in me enough, so I'm going to drown you all, etc, etc.

He apparently thinks it's time for a change - he's omnipotent, and omniscient, so he knows what he's been like, and knows what he's about to do.

But apparently, he can't just have a change of heart, so instead, he gets a girl pregnant, and has his son wandering around (a very tiny fraction of) the world like the first flower child, telling people to "be excellent to each other" and "party on, dude!" (Let's face it, the whole water into wine thing? It ain't about moderation. A reasonably well-off guy throws a party that gets so wild they run out of alcohol, and Jesus makes sure that all these shit-faced people can still get their drink on).

Note, by the way, that outside of the gospels, there's not a lot of corroboration for all these miracles. Never believe the report of a miracle from one of the original adherents to a religion. Take Joseph Smith - please.

Then the boy gets himself killed, without performing any "cross into butter" or "spear into feather fan" miracles. Afterwards, he supposedly comes back, based on the fact that (1) his tomb is empty, and (2) one, and only one of his disciples claims to have seen him.

You want impact? You want to convert the world? Resurrect your sorry ass, then walk up to Pilate, and say "that hurt, but I forgive you." But no - he just flies off.

And somehow, since he was willing to go through a great deal of pain (though far from the worst torture in existence), daddy is now willing to stop his bloodthirsty ways.

And this is supposed to make sense?

Granted, a mere two millennia later, Christianity is the largest of the three major world religions. Of course, it's also... shrinking...

Your court! :-D

Too long for one comment....

okay....taking up my racket....

1) In regards to my tunnel having a light at the end, and yours not...I guess all I can say to that is, as firm as I am in my knowledge of Christ, shaken or not, I'd rather be wrong in the end by believing than taking a risk by not, you know?

But I suppose I don't really ever think of it like that. I've had crises of faith before, but it ALWAYS goes back to my making the unfortunate mistake of trusting in fallible people. It is never God that changes or fails me, and when I remember that, I feel absolute again. "Feel" is the wrong word for that, but I don't know of a better one. So don't read it as emotion, read it as...I don't know...

2) the "refining process of Science" that tells us the sun will stay put, also has revealed some compelling evidence toward the creation story. I think it's also important for those not in Christianity to remember that most Christians do not believe the world was created in 7 days, lickety split, and other stories like that. We do leave room for figurative speech and realize that God's measurement of time is not necessarily the same as ours. However on that same note, evolution has so many flaws in it that many public schools are ceasing to teach it, and the complexities of things like the human eye are so intricate that scientists (both Christian and not) have admitted in a multitude of publications that neither evolution nor any other scientific explanation can account for it. It's things like this that firm up my belief in God - when the bible actually starts to make more sense than the squabbling scientists. Also, a lot of people do not understand that the bible actually does not contradict with science AT ALL, and yet they still accuse it of doing so.
Wait...why am i talking about science? Sorry....






part 2....


3) Smoting OT God - again, leave room for symbolism and interpretation. The message of Christ is a firm thing because it is repeated throughout the entire bible both OT and New Testament, and is emphasized too many times in too many ways to be taken as symbolic. However some of the stories of the OT may be proving a point rather than being counted as historical evidence. Considering it IS all true….as for God being in a crappy mood toward people for those gazillion years before Christ - here is the spiel you have probably heard a thousand times....
....If you really love someone, you can't force them to love you. There has to be a concept of free will in there somewhere, and God did not make an exception to this. He wants us to love Him, and so we have to make that decision. He did not create us to be robots. Adam/Eve/Sin, etc take place (and on a side note, there is no proof that there is just one man and woman and that everyone is a product of incest. The bible says god created “man and woman”, that could very well be plural, and even if it WERE incest, there aren’t the same medical issues there are today. Just thought I would throw that in so you don’t go on an Adam had sex with his daughter tangent)....then on the other hand, any loving Father (viewing the Father heart of God for the sake of the conversation) needs to have rules. EVERYTHING has rules...governments, physics, computers, etc. And if people choose to break the law, then yeah God can punish them because there is that huge separations between him and them because of human will choices. You will also notice in the OT that God shows great compassion and protects entire tribes of people who follow him and truly trust in Him. Those who follow the laws set before them actually prosper and do quite well. Would you protect your own children before you protect some strange guy off the street who has been talking smack about you and killing your family members for generations? You see what I'm getting at? Is this making sense? :)

So when Jesus came, he acted as an attorney of sorts for anyone who wants him to. A new law, a new bridge, a new liason to God if you will. What prompted his timing for that - I don't have an answer to. But I also think about how difficult it is to live with the things that I need to know on an every day basis, and so I really don't want to know every single thing God knows. I think my head would explode. So if my only doubt/fear is not knowing why God waited countless years before sending Christ, then I am willing to wait for a response to that because it is irrelevant, you know? I just feel dang lucky to live in New Testament days - we have air conditioner and cuter clothes over here....if that one unanswered question makes me ignorant and ruins our tennis game, then so be it. I just don’t think it is relevant, since timing is not the message we are to focus on.

4) "As you might be able to tell, of the three major world religions, I'm closer to the Hindu/Buddhist side of things than anything else. The Hindu concept of Maya makes a lot of sense to me." - tell me more about this. I know a lot about Hinduism, but I am interested in knowing what about it appeals to you.

part 3....

5)"All present evidence points to intelligence, of any form, being a very complex thing. And there is ample evidence of complexity arising from a few basic rules and the action of random chance." - Absolutely. That is exactly what creation actually is. I totally agree with you there. See above point about complexity versus simplicity and evidence supporting it. What you just said in no way contradicts against the bible.


part 4....

6) "he can't just have a change of heart, so instead, he gets a girl pregnant, and has his son wandering around (a very tiny fraction of) the world like the first flower child, telling people to "be excellent to each other" and "party on, dude!" - I have no doubt if Christ were to come back to day, he would be hanging out with the stoners, criminals, etc. Why wouldn't he? Those are the people he was designed for in the first place! Getting a girl pregnant....can you think of a better message to send to the human race than the concept of parent & child and then sacrificing that child? Isn't that the most gut-wrenching thing that no parent would want to do? I think it sends a very strong message that God loves us and made an ultimate sacrifice - cause it is one very few humans are willing to make. It is a poignant concept. If God had just said, “okay guys, my bad, let’s start over”….who would listen or believe him?

As for the unlimited wine supply - wine then is not like wine now. It isn't like there was seltzer water or cranberry juice readily available :) It is all cultural, it is the only thing they had. Sure they got drunk, but I think Jesus is the kind of guy who would keep the party going, not stop it :)

Again, none of this point contradicts the bible. And as for the whole sending his son deal, I explained that in previous paragraph. You, as a human with rights and a human will, get the gift and responsibility of either accepting it or not.

7) Note, by the way, that outside of the gospels, there's not a lot of corroboration for all these miracles. Never believe the report of a miracle from one of the original adherents to a religion. Take Joseph Smith - please. - Assuming you believe in historical research and the ability secular archaeologists have to determine the dates of documents, etc., we know that the majority of the writers of the Bible did not associate with each other and lived in different regions. Even those who did know each other - what motivation did they have to write such things if they were not at least remotely true? The reward they got was crappy travel conditions, persecution, and death. What is the perk for such a lie?

And also, those writers (such as Paul when he wrote to Rome) was not drawing upon ancient heresay of the OT, but rather was asking people to look at personal, present experience to learn about God's love for them. The same is true today. Churches preach about life application because there are a lot of comparisons to it in the bible, and God is a current God, not one that dwells solely upon ancient texts.


part 5....

8)Then the boy gets himself killed, without performing any "cross into butter" or "spear into feather fan" miracles. Afterwards, he supposedly comes back, based on the fact that (1) his tomb is empty, and (2) one, and only one of his disciples claims to have seen him. - Regarding above quote, Jesus did not perform magic tricks and he couldn't just walk off the cross and be like "ouch, jerk!" because that would defeat the entire purpose of sacrifice. The entire purpose of the message God was sending. It isn't like an alien sending a signal down to us, it is like a father saying to a son, "okay, these are the rules, this is how it's going to work, so don't be a wimp." And he wasn't. And he did make an impact, and he did convert the world (at least part of it) through the resurrection and he continues to make an impact through missionaries who follow the request he made to go into the entire world and spread what happened around. And He makes an impact on his own too. Even if you don't believe he has made an impact by turning everyone into pure saints (which is dumb and he obviously hasn't), you can't argue that many people have had an impact in their lives through alcohol recovery, getting through grief, finding a more constructive way to live their lives, etc.

Humans have a choice. It wouldn’t be a demonstration of love OR logic if they did not have a choice to believe it or not. But just because not everyone chose to….should mother teresa have not fed the hungry people she did because she would in no way be able to reach everyone? Should people not have been rescued from Katrina even though FEMA knew they wouldn’t be able to save everyone? Should Christ have not come even though he knew not everyone would accept it?

As for no corraboration of miracles outside of the gospels - the only thing I can say is that on missions trips I've been on, I've seen very similar things when people pray. I've seen demon possessed people, I've seen a blind person get healed, a paralyzed person walk, and it SCARED ME OUT OF MY MIND. You can be an ultimate cynic and say these were staged...but again, why would a blind person hang out with us for 3 weeks and then suddenly pull a stunt like that? Or if we went into a really remote village where they don't know us and we don't know them, what would give them the motivation to fake a demon possession or paralysis? The spirit behind these things and the fact they were complete strangers on both sides, unlike what you see on TV or in churches here, confirms my belief that miracles are apparent today as well. And plenty of people, Christians or not, have written books on them.

9) And somehow, since he was willing to go through a great deal of pain (though far from the worst torture in existence), daddy is now willing to stop his bloodthirsty ways. - not sure what the response to this is, because I am not sure what the question is. I think I responded to it somewhere above. God may seem “bloodthirsty”, but study the OT and all of the writings about graciousness, compassion, love, mercy, etc. A lot of the people living at that time don’t seem to agree with you…..

I hope none of this causes offense. It is so much easier to just write text book style than to try to be afraid of hurting your feelings. And besides you seem like a pretty tough and reasonable guy :) I think you know me well enough to know it is never my M.O. to hurt feelings and cause harm.

Ping! Your court….